didnt manage to play tennis today. "its to hot, can cook egg." quoted edison:) nvm we went to explore a new sports:D squash:D damn cool. rather fun and i think i'm gonna love it more if i can master it:D the 2 guys ho ah hwie and edison didnt played much. so me and steph played zhi bi zhen.played and laugh ourselves:) today damn happy. went for a more cooling sport then bowling. air-conditioned okay.lol. ah hwie's getting on hand already. gladly me too me too:D edison scored pertty well after practicing on FACEBOOK?! like okay. watever. steph's still using her "throw" style:D damn funny should video it:D there're like small cute kids just few lanes away playin like pro. and us? like OMG. loose face! nvm we're going to be pro SOON...........

tomorrow:D
its my beloved xiao ming's last day:(
so going for basketball and i want squash:)
collect pay after that:)
DURIAN:D

might be working tomorrow. 11.30 to 2.30 so our plan might change sian. buti wanna play:D
VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH:D

sentosa! i'm dating you lnwednesday alright. so please give me the SUN!:D
ivy's damn happy:D damn damn HIGH:D

went to school!i'm now in school waiting for the rest to come for tennis! i'm late but yet the earlist found these pictures on the desktop:D

cool right? our past and more fun less people ooppppsss:D

hi all:D
OMG! this weekend is like super HIGH for me! lol. went to work. giving out flyer everywhere. not those stupid paper you guys might be think. its CLUB 21!!!! its like OMG right?! haha their tee shirts are like WOW! damn ex. exhibition named ART OF THE T. located near the rafles mrt. exit J. lol. okay la. other than that worked with my best mates. jacen and shihui. rather dissapointed that sthep didnt join us but nvm her heart is with us! lol! seriously i'm like damn damn HIGH now! OMG! I MANAGE TO CATCH F1 LIVE ON TV AND LIVE! LIFE SIZE!!!lol. didnt watch the event anyone? simple just imagine a life size tamiya car race can already. lol the drivers are damn cute. squeeze in that small space! haha and can lose 3 kg like that cityspa should have that. haha. the NOISE i call is like VVVOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMM! cant imagine one must hear it yourself cause one word HIGH!!! i met jacen's friend pretty siao. crazy bunch of people. met hwee there to see the VVOOOOOOOOMMMMMM. saw shihui's sister and brother. met many people this weekend. but the only thing i'm upset about is my FARRARI TEAM didn't get anything! dissapointing when it crush my heart almost hump out! alonso won. deserve it but massa didn't which i thought he'd. nvm its all over. and I LOVE THE RACE!!

the lighting. the people. the crowd. the track. the shuttle bus. the car. the racers. totally OMG nice one singapore!:D

massa and my favourite FARRARI RACE CAR!:D

more damn high activities with my love ones coming up:D

going to school tmr to play tennis badminton and squash!:D

tuesday's pay day:D bring jacen and weixiang to interview(take over my panasonic printer job):D durian after that at gelang:D and tuesday's gelare day:D

wednesday's outing to sentosa!:D

weekend's working at funan centre sell hair dryer, hair curler, shaver and i got my own BOOTH and.got a panasonic "hourse" for me to play. wahahaha!:D cant wait man:D

life's great:D

ivy love the world:D

night guys:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEBBLE

(my beloved stone)

birthday fall on 23 sept

AND

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIXIANG

whose birthday is

TODAY:D

hi all,

this is EMMERSON ONG.

featured due to popular demand.

also known in the world-of-super-power as EMMERSON.
HE IS MY FRIEND:DSMILE DUDE!:D

i've been a pest recently. sorry alright but do believe that i'll not anymore pester you ask for help. cause i'm going to leave you alone.and leave to live in my own bubble.i wished to be freed like i used to be. PEACE. love the world:D

pretty bored at home. busy playing facebook. top my score. happy and look at what i did to my hair.

yup! i cut my hair myself. not too bad. great improvementof skills since the last time.

conclusion

when ivy gets bored. anything can happen!

love the world:D

i'm pretty bored at home but is broke. life's hard for me!:(
hope that tomorrow'll be better

I'M A FREAKING ASS-HOLE!

i read MMR, okay more direct. little green bean's blog. lol wat a name. thanks to maggie mee sean.haha. ya WTH!
obsereved. what?superior and inferior in the world? i can understand the feeling of being weak, useless, 0r lousycause i understand and went through it before. she said she lost self-esteem, confident and power to "voice"..?!
POWER TO VOICE? LIKE ARH... EEE.... WUUU?power to speak up her mind? but i heard there's a TYPED mail going on in the dirctor's office? so didnt speak but can type. more power. lol.
If they are lucky to have someone to help, guide, push, comfort,encourage and voice for them..."it's just fated"
? saying us? me? are we SUPPOSED TO LIKE HELP? when she leave us to like die in the desert?! WTF! typically bustard!
No one will understand those people feeling until they experience it....So never bully people who are weaker and younger than you....
i just gotta say i dun think you're weak.

i know you're not feeling rather cool about this course. our beloved FAQ! coded.to be frank i do! i hope that you stop whatever you're doing and spare thoughts for others okay me! thanks for being close to us carrying the machine gun. we are shot by you. but not dead. alright like everyone know i dare to VOICE. speak. so yup. i'm saying this to you and to all. i was pretty happy or rather VERY HAPPY recently and i bet the days to come.but i dun think you're. i don't wanna hear any news of you especially news that affect me and my loved ones. thanks for leaving me and us alone.
thanks the rest for listening me SCREAM!
and i'm happy. still very happy:D

WUUUUHUUU!

damn damn damn. i finish my fuc*ing final individual report. today.one word.SHIOK!wahahaa. cant feel any better. did it like many many repeated times. didnt save la. com hang la.

poor com. 150 fucking amt of ppt slides leaah and all those DSLR pictures. wahaha. but I'M DONE! FINALLY:D i think wun use the com for the next few days my eyes and hands sick of staring at the screen and typing. going to rest after i finish sending to edison and stephanie one copy in case. haha. special thanks to
Melissa & CQ for their ppt slides
Shaads group for their ppt sllides
Shihui, stephanie, seng hwee, edison for being there to help
Harifth and perry for guiding me to finish my report

you can see me smile finally:D

GOOD NIGHT ALL

tonight i can sleep well:D

today whole day stay at home to do my report i thought it was suppose to be done in words then i did. then people tell me that its in ppt slides. nvm i did my ctrl A. ctrl C. ctrl V. like i always do and i know some of the people whom i copied from wasnt quite pissed. sorry all. i didnt quite care about the grades. its my process. teh thing we do together. but nvm. still copied. haven quite finish everything. thanks all for sendind your ppt slides for my refference. but its sort of too much for my suzuki to handle. it hang for many many times today plus my music. lol.
going to school tomorrow at like 10. for a sercret party. hopefully a success:D just witnessed acar accident at my house carpark. a wish 7 seater V.S. old uncle bike. petty the uncle. he got hurt and his old mate's in a damn sad state. lol WINNER. the uncle cause its the wish 7 seater's driver fault. stupid driving. think is in the movie arh? drift?! so fast so furious? LAME! said that to scare ah HWIE and EDISON. lol. ya. almost forgot! I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN! sure cool didnt know i can read all those >?:$L%$:^>. haha. but cool. and I GOT A TAGBOX!watever it is i think i'm damn pro!:D

white flag doesnt mean surrender it means only the strong stands:D

end. love the world:D

this post is not referring to anyone or anything. so dun think. i just wanna speak.

recently i think i'm rather FUC*. there're problems or situations that are actually very minor problem tiny tiny ones but because of me! IVY LEE, made the situation very stiff. i stir and stir and said and said and the problem become big. no air for everone. i think sometimes i might think too much, know too much, said too much. sorry all. but please understand me. if i know somthing most probably the whole world would know. i cant take secrets and i dun like the feeling that i know something but i have to pretend i didnt know. how to? if i say it'll spoil friendship. relationship and you'll doubt me? then what for?i'm doing *. creating problem for myself. i've decided to shut up. i'm talkative but this time i'll seriously shut up. and will not complain anymore. i just live the way i want it and you live yours. we're still together but my soul's out. it'll be a zombie walking around and i'm selfish but sorry i'll be even more selfish in the days to come. thanks for teaching me to BE SMART.

E. the man that i thought was a gentleman wasnt.
J. the man whom i thought was there for me wasnt there.
E. the man who used to listen to me cry scream led his own life without me.
L. the man whom will give the best advice ask me to study hard.
H. the man whom i thought wasnt good wasnt that bad.
S. the lady whom i thought needs protection is strong. tough.
S. the one who's only with me for happy hour. wasnt trueful.
H. the one who left my friends hurt. and changed them.

I. the one who think she knows everything doesnt
I. the one who always neglect the people who love her.
I. the one who stir everything up and is sorry.
ONE REPUBLIC. i say its too late to appologise.
I. the one who smiles when she's not happy.
I. who always mix the good and the bad.
I. thinks that she's doing great wasnt.
I. shows attidude to people she loves. and hurt them most.
I. see people on the surface and never listen until she gets hurt.
I. am IVY LEE. and she hate herself for being bad.

finding my heart from the mess i've created.

love all:D

every step you move is critical
cause it hurts me and is killing me
so please. i'm begging

hi all:D
thanks everyone for the care.but i'm like pretty fine now. just pissed with myself. super just wanna arh. did the super damn report gotta rush for submission then no ppt slides no reference. alright i'm pretty stupid okay. need all those. but i'll do this all by meself. going to east coast park tomorrow. HOPEFULLY its fun. i think it'll. we're not full strength. shihui's like sick. edison gotta go by 4pm. but we love being together right? i'll try my best to smile. cause i'm happy. and i seriously am:)

MORE THAN WORDS

FOUND THOSE PICTURES. rather cool. it has been a long time. lol:D
you guys seriously rock my life:D
much much loves. never never ending
NOT FORGETTING

edison shihui stephanie senghwee
jacen weixiang
nothing to complain when i see you guys:D
give me a hug when you see me

just look at him! my oh my. shuan me somemore. i put your para para on youtube

i'm pissed. YOU fucked up my life!

hai.was rather happy to day initially. but going online was a mistake. meet people talked. chated. but to me its rather FAKE. but anyway. meet with my friend who's having some problems witth relation ship. this guy helped me alot in th past. hope he'll be strong and even stronger. read blogs. the whol day was totally wasted on like doing nothing. totally nothing. but today i know that people talk they talk. so yup i'll still love the world more more and even more.
anyway try this
http://www.freerice.com/index.php
good for health.
gotta wake up early tomorrow. nights all:D
a smile a day keeps the devil away:D

wawawawawa! damn jia lat! my sketch's like total shit. i took like 20 mins to draw but still hopeless! should use the simple method! trace! haha. my proportion's like all WRONG! and i think i have to redo. so means that the 20 mins i've spent is all wasted! hai. no choice. if gotta redo i'll just trace la. so troublesome. REPORT! more jia lat! i dunno if the report format that i thought's right is right. should be right la. see how lor. die die lor. hai. so ma fan. anyway. i finish my sketch already. *attatch bottom. dun laugh. its okay but cant pass. hopefully pass la.hahaha. report must wait for edison to send me. wait wait wait.if he send me fast fast treat him ice-cream. slow slow treat him eat shit. LOL
love the world:D

just fucking look at my DUCK TOUR. FLYER. PEOPLE. TREE. MERLION.

lol. i see already also keep laughing. ku xiao bu de. weeps

sorry harifth.lol

i'm back! from my long long sleep. sometimes i hope i'll never wake up.its e new day and everything's over and hopfully today'll be better later tonight got BBQ by one of my twin friend ivy and carol. its their birthday party i call. i dunno if i should go. i quit my job and i bet everyone's unhappy with my act. i wast happy for that move either. it's a long time since i'e been working there its a hard move but i hope everyone to be happy myself too. and tomorrow's like 8 yue 15 meaning its MOON CAKE FESTIVAL! read teh papers. said that there'll be super cloudy so might not be able to see the moon. i hope i cant see the moon either. cause i'll get emo!anyway. lol. should.should lah going to my aunt's house to celebrate. though its lame and the adults will sure sure chop chop ask about many many things. didnt wanna think. but i'll have a way to handle.wahaha. edison's planning for another outing on monday. said to be going to east coast for hao liao. dunno what he's up to but i'm certainly sure that he meant good! right EDISON!?
ya i'm like thinking just now. my old phon'e 1.3 megapixels. OMINA's 5 megapixels. DSLR's 10 megapixels. then our eyes? 20 megapixels? tell me the answer! i'm lucky to be able to see this beautiful world. i'll treasure it!
love all!:D

many things happened.no time to explain.wasnt feeling well. puke once otw home. auntie thought i'm pregnant fucking 'fu' me all the way to the traffic light. i said i'm okay for like 5 times then she let me go. thanks auntie for caring. dunno why but fucking had a headache on my left brain and eye and whole left side. went home puked once. bathe. now blog. wanna check out the other people's blog. think i'm caring too much and knowing too much at times making me tired and sick.cant accept the world like it is. didnt wanna face the fact. i was alone carrying knife thought that i was strong. but mowadays people carry machine guns. wear mask and THEY KILL. i wanna be alone. but i want people to know me. what the hell i'm thinking and analysis for me. tell me what's right whats wrong. i always make the wrong move. maybe i should not think too much. anyway going to bed soon. thanks for caring and i know what to do for now. thanks all.
i'll learn to love the world and accept al.
nights.
*to be continued

i think i'm FUCKING in love with someone not worth my love my time and ME!and trust me i'm gonna FUCKING give up soon and give up means ever ever and forever.

there're people around us who're total coward. PLEASE ALL! if u're like so cool. so daring to send those mail, letter or whatever to the director of TDS. our EVD lecturers. please do also CC to all YOUR BELOVED COURSEMATES you call. cause whenever you or you all say WE means us too! everyone! and if you guys dont know, there're people like me who love the course, love the environment we're in and love the people here. if YOU think that what you've done is totally fair to the rest of the people you see almost everyday, then seriously whoever you're, you're really not fit to be here. not fit to be part of us AT ALL! seriously if you guys think that P2 or whatever reasons (EXCUSES i call) you have to do, that is like a real stress to you and you really cant cant stand it. PLEASE! I'M BEGGING YOU! just get lost and quit will you.why? why
struggle?why suffer? do you deserve this? NO! so get yourself some freedom will you. the world is out there for you. SINCERELY WISH YOU GOOD LUCK!
but having thought of that having what you've got now. WHERE CAN YOU GO? i'm not talking about your qualifications. but do please change the attitude. i know you guys are adults now and have your own thinking you know what you want the best. and be it right or wrong you guys should be rather firm about it. but please always think for the others. for this time whoever who's the one or ones who sent or made that statement.A GREAT THANK-YOU for making the others learn to bond better. love one another much more. as for those who're not with us. you can join us for the fun, the happy moments we have can have you in too. no one really hope that anyone die. so lets not kill one another. alright? DEAL.
sometimes learning can be enjoyable. depending on how you look at it. whenever something happpens be it good or bad we learn something. i know that you didnt feel good either. i know you got lots to say lots to think about lots for frustration lots of irritation you think that you're alone no one understands you. i know how you feel cause i felt that too. everytime. but sad to say life's like this and it is like that. so either change yourself to fit in or DIE! never expect others, everyone to change for you. CAUSE THEY WOULDNT. and why should they? anyway i just wanna say i dont think that your approach to the problem wasnt right in the first place!
just imagine if you're to die the very next day.
treasure whtever you have today live it with a smile and no regrads
whoever it is, you'll only be forgiven if you dare to ammit its you. although it might not change anything but you're one huge step forward for being brave and aferall we're all humans we make mistakes too.hope you learn to be more caring and happy.
with much love and concern,
ivy:)

LOTS TO SAY