i've already set my mind on how to make myself happy.
i've always made other peoples problem seems like mine. and i think thats really god damn stupid of me to do that.
but alright. lets put it to an end. past.
now i'll only care for those who need me and those whom i really care for.
i start to hate school as much as loving school. everything everyone.
i'm very glad to have known some people but i'd like to name some who i really care.
first. my BFF- seanny sean sean.
at first i said he's my BFF just for fun. but over time i really think he is. and i'll also be a good BFF for him:D
second. my old friend- sister ngiam.
hahaha. i think thats more than words. i believe that we're 2 aunties. seriously. going to the market to grab many many bargains. till 50. maybe we'll be sitting by the beach like we used to watching our kids play.
then my bestfriend- LEO
at first when i saw him or knew him i really really hate him. but over time i get to know him better and understand him. though i think sometimes he's not talking sense. but. he's one that will listen to me and for me thas enough.
forth up. my new friend- jason lau kim leong
i might not know him that well or might not even have much common interest. but i know he's a good guy and a nice friend. so, i'll try and be your nice friend jason:D
fifth. my lost friend- prissy.
one that stays near me and was the past me. hack care. i think she has a nice heart. to me she was there, will be here and will be there. love you prissy:D
i have many many many friends in my 3 years life.
some changed me. some made me a fighter. some always and only see me cry. some didnt get to know me well enough to comment. some just like to laugh at me. some has weird voice. some like super junior. some didnt/ hate them. some only tapped in and out of studio. some love to jog around school. some love KFC. some cannot live without bubbletea. some are great fan of xerox. some will find hassan for the whole day. some are staring at their laptop the whole day. some print and print and print. some love to take photo of themselves. some only snap themselves. some love to webcam. some sing out loud. some need to go to the toilet every now and then. some love the bookshop. some have maggie mee for every meal. some need to go home early. some love to stay out late.
whatever or whoever you're. no matter what flaws you have, be it good or bad. i'm very happy to have all of you here with me. being through all these together. and no matter what you'll always be a part of me.
hahah. okay dont be so emo.
ENJOY SIP EVERYONE. SARANGHAE.
and tomorrow will be a better day.
love ivy:D
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
oppa!:*(
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translation:
Many people don't know what to say, right?
I'm upset, we are really working very hard.
We're trying our best but there are always many people speaking ill of us.
Really, we're always working hard. I'm really upset.
You won't understand how hurt those criticisms make me.
Few days ago, I hurt my leg as we were performing 'U'.
At the hospital I was told that I need to have surgery, and there would be consequences due to surgery.
But I wanted to be with the members so I got a cast.
People who don't know about this always speaking ill of us. I'm mad.
And I hoped I could go on current programs with other members since it's not for a long time.
Our boys are really working harder today then ever before...
translation:
Many people don't know what to say, right?
I'm upset, we are really working very hard.
We're trying our best but there are always many people speaking ill of us.
Really, we're always working hard. I'm really upset.
You won't understand how hurt those criticisms make me.
Few days ago, I hurt my leg as we were performing 'U'.
At the hospital I was told that I need to have surgery, and there would be consequences due to surgery.
But I wanted to be with the members so I got a cast.
People who don't know about this always speaking ill of us. I'm mad.
And I hoped I could go on current programs with other members since it's not for a long time.
Our boys are really working harder today then ever before...
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
mail to farked up boss!
Hi Benjamin,
i didnt go to office today. basically because i didnt know what to show you.
i did directional signage, flora signs.(as attached)
i think i sent it to you before.
if you want the location sign (orientation boards.)
i got no idea where i should start from.
all the maps i have are in a mess. Different style. Different colour and all very pixilated.
and i got no content to add in. i think i really need to sit down with you to discuss about this.
sorry, its very inconvenient for me to get those things done fast and efficent.
my desktop at home crashed and i wouldnt download too much softwares into my laptop cause it'll crash it sooner or later.
very sorry to tell you that actually i'm a environment design student.
and here am i, trying to brand nature parks, and also the things that i'm doing now, its the first time i'm doing it.
i'm not sure if i'm doing well enough. but i've tried my best.
it seems like i know how to do it but i'm stucked many times.
and doing the layout or sample copy wouldn’t help much cause every park is different and the amount of documents to be added in differ too.
i need to know exactly which park, and what exactly what i should do.
telling me signage and brochure is really too broad for me to work from.
hope to get more input from you when i meet you tomorrow.
thanks,
Ivy
i didnt go to office today. basically because i didnt know what to show you.
i did directional signage, flora signs.(as attached)
i think i sent it to you before.
if you want the location sign (orientation boards.)
i got no idea where i should start from.
all the maps i have are in a mess. Different style. Different colour and all very pixilated.
and i got no content to add in. i think i really need to sit down with you to discuss about this.
sorry, its very inconvenient for me to get those things done fast and efficent.
my desktop at home crashed and i wouldnt download too much softwares into my laptop cause it'll crash it sooner or later.
very sorry to tell you that actually i'm a environment design student.
and here am i, trying to brand nature parks, and also the things that i'm doing now, its the first time i'm doing it.
i'm not sure if i'm doing well enough. but i've tried my best.
it seems like i know how to do it but i'm stucked many times.
and doing the layout or sample copy wouldn’t help much cause every park is different and the amount of documents to be added in differ too.
i need to know exactly which park, and what exactly what i should do.
telling me signage and brochure is really too broad for me to work from.
hope to get more input from you when i meet you tomorrow.
thanks,
Ivy
today is a farked up day. texted boss yesterday night. ask what task he have for me tmr. which is today. he say do signage and brochure. go to office in the4 afternoon to show him.
then i asked. what signage are you looking at? directional sign location sig or educational sign?or you just want the layout?
brochure? the layout too? i dont think i have the ability to do the content. i said.
then.. no reply. 9pm i texted him again the same msg. no reply.
i didnt sleep well. many things went through my head. i think im trying too hard. i like the people there at nparks. i think they're very nice. only problem. no balls. everything they do they must cover their ass first. i'm damn pissed. they never fight for the right. just make sure they never offend anyone and get their pay. the system is damn farked up. all about emailing and bossing people around. so what if you're the head when you got no leadership skills? so what if you get your 2000 pay when you didnt contribute anything to nature? being at nparks. national parks board! you care more about yourself more than nature? why are those people there?i thought they're supposed to conserve? nevermind. not talk about that. just they dont have the mindset to step up and improve. everyone's being very defensive here.
talk about my work scope.
i am an environment design student. i'm assigned logo, tee shirt, signage, brochures. basically the whole branding thingy. i thought it was okay. it sounds cool at first. first thing i ask. what kind of style they wanna give the public? colour? any idea of what you want? NOTHING. you're the designer. we trust you taste. you just come out with a few for us to choose from. okay. i did. i did more than a few. i did more than 20 different styles for them. they short listed. people who know me and the way i work i bet they would know that i'm very much a manual queen and i dont quite know or like to use photoshop and stuff. yet i'm doing this logo thingy everyday. using photoshop. with my very little knowledge on the software. alright. i shall carry on..then i developed. at one point of time i have to drop the logo thingy as the CEO dislike the idea of having too many logo under nparks. okay i expected that. but due to many reasons, the logo is on again. i carry on and developed it. after i got a finalized one. that i'm very satisfied with, my bossed called me. change this and that. alright. basically change the whole idea. i'm damn pissed. since you know what you want, cant you tell me from the start? i mean it'll save me hell lots of time thinking and brainstorming despite the fact that i have no background knowledge at all.
i started off with a design without brief. i think thats the worst a designer can get i guess. key word: signage. and i've got to do it. with what. how? thats my problem. how does that sound to you? All I need is critical thoughts. I need to be directed and guided. Can I get a pat on my shoulder when I’m doing good and please shoot my design all you want. That’s how I can improve.
I got to thank franca so much for her support and being there to understand my problem and situation. Thanks.
There’s just many things going on in my head. hope that i'll be better tomorrow.
then i asked. what signage are you looking at? directional sign location sig or educational sign?or you just want the layout?
brochure? the layout too? i dont think i have the ability to do the content. i said.
then.. no reply. 9pm i texted him again the same msg. no reply.
i didnt sleep well. many things went through my head. i think im trying too hard. i like the people there at nparks. i think they're very nice. only problem. no balls. everything they do they must cover their ass first. i'm damn pissed. they never fight for the right. just make sure they never offend anyone and get their pay. the system is damn farked up. all about emailing and bossing people around. so what if you're the head when you got no leadership skills? so what if you get your 2000 pay when you didnt contribute anything to nature? being at nparks. national parks board! you care more about yourself more than nature? why are those people there?i thought they're supposed to conserve? nevermind. not talk about that. just they dont have the mindset to step up and improve. everyone's being very defensive here.
talk about my work scope.
i am an environment design student. i'm assigned logo, tee shirt, signage, brochures. basically the whole branding thingy. i thought it was okay. it sounds cool at first. first thing i ask. what kind of style they wanna give the public? colour? any idea of what you want? NOTHING. you're the designer. we trust you taste. you just come out with a few for us to choose from. okay. i did. i did more than a few. i did more than 20 different styles for them. they short listed. people who know me and the way i work i bet they would know that i'm very much a manual queen and i dont quite know or like to use photoshop and stuff. yet i'm doing this logo thingy everyday. using photoshop. with my very little knowledge on the software. alright. i shall carry on..then i developed. at one point of time i have to drop the logo thingy as the CEO dislike the idea of having too many logo under nparks. okay i expected that. but due to many reasons, the logo is on again. i carry on and developed it. after i got a finalized one. that i'm very satisfied with, my bossed called me. change this and that. alright. basically change the whole idea. i'm damn pissed. since you know what you want, cant you tell me from the start? i mean it'll save me hell lots of time thinking and brainstorming despite the fact that i have no background knowledge at all.
i started off with a design without brief. i think thats the worst a designer can get i guess. key word: signage. and i've got to do it. with what. how? thats my problem. how does that sound to you? All I need is critical thoughts. I need to be directed and guided. Can I get a pat on my shoulder when I’m doing good and please shoot my design all you want. That’s how I can improve.
I got to thank franca so much for her support and being there to understand my problem and situation. Thanks.
There’s just many things going on in my head. hope that i'll be better tomorrow.
results!
F sia. WTH. results has never improved since year 1 but kept dropping. jia lat.but. nevermind. who cares. GPA: 2.26
lucky number 0226!
huat ar!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
damn happy today
today's damn happy. not damn. but happy:D
franca mailed me a damn touching mail. love her:)
my friend from philipines msn me:)
kil soo and do gyun mailed me:)
ngaim als freaking cute today but sadly only today:)
chatted with edison online, he's in cheena. miss him much:)
chatted with sean. hha enjoy seeing him scold people especially yalam. damn funny:)
my boss never KB me:)
the way they talk ar. LOL sia.haha.
miss them:(
but thats enough! it can leave me smiling for days:D
franca mailed me a damn touching mail. love her:)
my friend from philipines msn me:)
kil soo and do gyun mailed me:)
ngaim als freaking cute today but sadly only today:)
chatted with edison online, he's in cheena. miss him much:)
chatted with sean. hha enjoy seeing him scold people especially yalam. damn funny:)
my boss never KB me:)
the way they talk ar. LOL sia.haha.
miss them:(
but thats enough! it can leave me smiling for days:D
Monday, September 28, 2009
si beh LOL:
just recieved a mail from franca:
she's from australia came here to teach NPARKS whats right and whats wrong!
totally agree to her most of the time!
He is joking isn't he... that's not a logo its a regulation... not even a good looking one? It will not leave a positive impression on anyone. If he is serious, we need to have a chat to him so do please let me know and i will call him?
si beh LOL sia the way she say!
she's from australia came here to teach NPARKS whats right and whats wrong!
totally agree to her most of the time!
He is joking isn't he... that's not a logo its a regulation... not even a good looking one? It will not leave a positive impression on anyone. If he is serious, we need to have a chat to him so do please let me know and i will call him?
si beh LOL sia the way she say!
dead
today is a farking bad day. nothing is right!
simply pissed with myself. i am not a graphic designer.
thanks for that. i could only do my best in whatever i can do!
i tried my best! you want this want that. whatever okay!
i did this (the colour is wrong. but the shape is there):
simply pissed with myself. i am not a graphic designer.
thanks for that. i could only do my best in whatever i can do!
i tried my best! you want this want that. whatever okay!
i did this (the colour is wrong. but the shape is there):
Ivy,
I am off the view that the squirrel is too "immature". I suggest a sharper look, like an outline without the eyes and details. Currently, it looks good for a kindergarten mascot.
As a guide, the attached image may be closer to what I am looking for although it is a monkey. But you should get the idea. One colour, no details, proportionate image.
i replied:
i thought it'll look weird with a graphical tree with a 'real' squirrel. and i dont know how to 'graphic' it using photoshop. nevermind. i'll try.
thanks,
ivy
freaking ugly
wa lau. i'm damn pissed. there was once i went to the library. cause i lost my ezlink, borrowed books with my CB 'buddy' fark off. using her card. CB. we didnt return the books on time. fark off la. we borrow tgt return tgt la. she go return her books herself never tell me. CB.then i return late. sua. got fine lor. i okay one. then just now texted me saying : hey. when YOU wanna return YOUR library fines. CB. mine la. hor. borrow tgt you selfish never inform me then got fine text me. nvm. she say: the fine's $6.30. i cant borrow book already. bull shit la. my fine's 14++ still can borrow. nvm. wa lan! $6.30 nia sia. say until like i dun wanna pay her liddat. CB. i damn pissed. i replied: i transfer you. wa lan. just damn lame la. scared i run meah? you earn $2000 per month doing shit job wanna GEH GAO $6.30 with a intern shame on you! LOL. like seriously. you cannot pay first then collect money from me meah? i hate to quarrel with people over small things especially small money. eh. you owe me 50CENTS the other time. FARK OFF LA!!!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
kangin :(
Yes, beating the dead horse.Super Junior's Kangin will finally receive judgment this week for his involvement in a recent bar fight. My guess is that he'll receive a slap on the wrist, after all it seems he didn't instigate the fight and it was mainly self defense.
The police stated on the 21st:
"At first, Kangin tried to avoid the fight. However, one of the suspects kept following him around and continuously attempted to attack him, in which Kangin did attack the suspect. The investigations are over and a conclusion has been drawn. Although we cannot reveal specifics yet, Kangin will be charged sometime this week."
SM Entertainment stated:
"Kangin tried to avoid the fight, but had no choice, it was self defense."
Kangin stated:
"I'm very sorry about causing trouble. To everyone who has been concerned for me, I would like to apologize. I will make sure to never cause another situation like this again."
Whatevers! I still want to see Kangin kicking some pedestrian ass. Imagine getting beaten by an idol group member, now that's embarrassing, even if Kangin isn't your typical idol group member.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
G-Dragon, the center of various controversies lately, managed to draw the public's attention yet again, this time not with his neon shorts or plagiarism accusations, but the rumored cancer stick he was seen holding between his fingers. This explains why the "Boy" can't "Breathe"! Kush and actress Kim Min Hee were also spotted in the pictures. 
As expected, netizens are in complete disarray over the photos of the Big Bang leader blazing one up at the 2009 Global Gathering.
This fool smokes too?
Smoking isn't a big deal, but GD is an idol. Shouldn't he be more careful?
I liked Big Bang's GD better than the solo GD.
He really wants to ruin his image -.-
Didn't he participate in an anti-smoking campaign last year? How hypocritical.
An artist like him should be taking care of his throat, but he smokes instead.
On the other hand, some comments were in defense of G-Dragon's act.
Smoking is not the issue here. It's his plagiarism accusations.
I feel sorry for both Jaebeom and GD... Being a celebrity in Korea must be stressful.
What's wrong with smoking?
He looks cool even when he smokes.
Even if these pictures turn out to be fake, VIPs generally agreed that smoking is his own private matter. However, they are still concerned for his health. After all, smoking has been scientifically proven to cause to several life-threatening health risks. Perhaps this "Heartbreaker" should stop breaking girls' hearts and start taking care of his own.
As expected, netizens are in complete disarray over the photos of the Big Bang leader blazing one up at the 2009 Global Gathering.
This fool smokes too?
Smoking isn't a big deal, but GD is an idol. Shouldn't he be more careful?
I liked Big Bang's GD better than the solo GD.
He really wants to ruin his image -.-
Didn't he participate in an anti-smoking campaign last year? How hypocritical.
An artist like him should be taking care of his throat, but he smokes instead.
On the other hand, some comments were in defense of G-Dragon's act.
Smoking is not the issue here. It's his plagiarism accusations.
I feel sorry for both Jaebeom and GD... Being a celebrity in Korea must be stressful.
What's wrong with smoking?
He looks cool even when he smokes.
Even if these pictures turn out to be fake, VIPs generally agreed that smoking is his own private matter. However, they are still concerned for his health. After all, smoking has been scientifically proven to cause to several life-threatening health risks. Perhaps this "Heartbreaker" should stop breaking girls' hearts and start taking care of his own.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
hai. damn sian
Jaebeom posted:
"Hello, I'm 2PM's Jaebeom.
I'm sorry for giving you my last greeting through this letter.
I think it will be hard for me to see you all on stage because of my sorry heart.
I'm really sorry to everyone, and I'm even more sorry to the fans who have shown me love.
From today, I will leave 2PM.
2PM boys, I'm really sorry to the boys and I'm sorry I couldn't be strong as a leader and a hyung and have to leave like this.
However, I hope you will be more cool and charming.
Again, I'm sorry.
Jaebeom"
allkpop-jaebeom
Former 2PM leader, Jaebeom...or I guess we should now say Jay Park, has left Korea. The fallen star left Korea on September 8th, 2009 on an afternoon flight at Incheon Airport with over 500 fans literally screaming, crying, and begging for him not to go.Since the scandal broke out, much controversy has stirred up in the Korean and online community with hate and support forums popping up everywhere. Rumors had been spiraling that Jay was leaving 2PM but JYP announced that he would be staying with the group, leaving fans relieved, only to have the moment shortened by a guilt ridden Jay who announced he would be leaving the group to take responsibility as a leader and to no longer put the group through more trouble.
Korea reports blame mainly the online community, saying they took a small mistake and blew it out of proportion, pushing Jay over the limit and caused him to resign with their hate forums and blogs, although many have expressed their positive opinions about him. One netizen even said, "I am not a fan of 2PM but I am a fan of music. I admit what Jaebeom said was wrong but it is undeniable that the guy is super talented and thus he should be forgiven."
With Jaebeom leaving Korea and stepping down as leader, new rumors are spiraling that Junho will be taking over as leader of 2PM. How this will affect the group and its schedule is unclear but one thing is for sure; it will never be the same again.
Jaebeom reportedly arrives at 12:40PM PST in Seattle.
Many fans both in Korea and worldwide are in hysterics, and rumors have been flying off the roof. Though it's heartbreaking for many to see this talented leader leave, the dust has yet to settle and we are still waiting on further official reports from JYPE. Thus, no assumptions on 2PM and Jay should be made yet as no formal plans have been announced. We hope the best for his future endeavors, be it with 2PM or not. Stay tuned for further developments!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
weekly report
first day. reported to work damn early. meet CQ. bike to office. filled up some forms. waited for an hour. someone came to fetch me. drove me to hort park. listened to a talk. went back office. no more.
estimated walking distance: 1-2kn
second day. reported at yishun park early in the morning. went to visit yishun park. then bukit batok natural reserve. went back office. listen to talks.no more.
estimated walking distance: 4-5km
third day. reported at harbourfront mrt. went to hort park. walked alone around for an hour. left for labrador park. which is a long way dep in some ulu place. went back office. no more.
estimated walking distance: 20km.
today. reported at woodlands mrt. went to admarity... forgot the spelling. walk through. went back office for a meeting. celebrated the boss's birthday. no more.
estimated walking distance:10km
tmr. meeting prissy. reporting at office. discuss on major plannings. meet boss and discuss. no more.
saturday. going for a very very expensive and nice dinner.
sunday. no planning yet. if still no planning by then i'll be going work. needs extra cash. damn that 440.
actually there're more that happened. just lazy to update. i just told prissy and shihui. 2 whom i see almost everyday. more to prissy cause she stay at serangoon and we're under the same building doing the same thing but.. different dept.
love school. miss the people. miss the life. miss super junior. miss chicken cutlet. miss teh bing. miss bokshop. miss bus 8.
i hope 3 months will pass quickly.
love everyine. saranghae. hope that the rest are doing well. jason and steph. get well soon. the rest.. please survive. :D
estimated walking distance: 1-2kn
second day. reported at yishun park early in the morning. went to visit yishun park. then bukit batok natural reserve. went back office. listen to talks.no more.
estimated walking distance: 4-5km
third day. reported at harbourfront mrt. went to hort park. walked alone around for an hour. left for labrador park. which is a long way dep in some ulu place. went back office. no more.
estimated walking distance: 20km.
today. reported at woodlands mrt. went to admarity... forgot the spelling. walk through. went back office for a meeting. celebrated the boss's birthday. no more.
estimated walking distance:10km
tmr. meeting prissy. reporting at office. discuss on major plannings. meet boss and discuss. no more.
saturday. going for a very very expensive and nice dinner.
sunday. no planning yet. if still no planning by then i'll be going work. needs extra cash. damn that 440.
actually there're more that happened. just lazy to update. i just told prissy and shihui. 2 whom i see almost everyday. more to prissy cause she stay at serangoon and we're under the same building doing the same thing but.. different dept.
love school. miss the people. miss the life. miss super junior. miss chicken cutlet. miss teh bing. miss bokshop. miss bus 8.
i hope 3 months will pass quickly.
love everyine. saranghae. hope that the rest are doing well. jason and steph. get well soon. the rest.. please survive. :D
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
da shanghai
i went to da shang hai for dinner with my family. its my ah ma's birthday. happy birthday to her. love her damn lots. though she like to nag alot. will upload the images soon. blogger got some problem i think.. tomorrow is SIP. good luck to all. saranghae:D
Saturday, July 25, 2009
edison & hwee
haha. i manage to catch them online. but. didnt talk much if you 2 are stalking me like now!!! leave me a tag okay.
saranghae and enjoy the cheena life for 3 months.
saranghae and enjoy the cheena life for 3 months.
i hate to wait.
i'm now waiting for yahli's e-mail reply.
which is making me damn restless. i lost my very very important SIP student log book. can you imagine i've already misplace it before you even go for you sip?
speechless careless useless.
nevermind. anyway. i've already set my mind on how to make myself happy.
i've always made other peoples problem seems like mine. and i think thats really god damn stupid of me to do that.
but alright. lets put it to an end. past.
now i'll only care for those who need me and those whom i really care for.
i start to hate school as much as loving school. everything everyone.
i'm very glad to have known some people but i'd like to name some who i really care.
first. my BFF- seanny sean sean.
at first i said he's my BFF just for fun. but over time i really think he is. and i'll also be a good BFF for him:D
second. my old friend- sister ngiam.
hahaha. i think thats more than words. i believe that we're 2 aunties. seriously. going to the market to grab many many bargains. till 50. maybe we'll be sitting by the beach like we used to watching our kids play.
then my bestfriend- LEO
at first when i saw him or knew him i really really hate him. but over time i get to know him better and understand him. though i think sometimes he's not talking sense. but. he's one that will listen to me and for me thas enough.
forth up. my new friend- jason lau kim leong
i might not know him that well or might not even have much common interest. but i know he's a good guy and a nice friend. so, i'll try and be your nice friend jason:D
fifth. my lost friend- prissy.
one that stays near me and was the past me. hack care. i think she has a nice heart. to me she was there, will be here and will be there. love you prissy:D
i have many many many friends in my 3 years life.
some changed me. some made me a fighter. some always and only see me cry. some didnt get to know me well enough to comment. some just like to laugh at me. some has weird voice. some like super junior. some didnt/ hate them. some only tapped in and out of studio. some love to jog around school. some love KFC. some cannot live without bubbletea. some are great fan of xerox. some will find hassan for the whole day. some are staring at their laptop the whole day. some print and print and print. some love to take photo of themselves. some only snap themselves. some love to webcam. some sing out loud. some need to go to the toilet every now and then. some love the bookshop. some have maggie mee for every meal. some need to go home early. some love to stay out late.
whatever or whoever you're. no matter what flaws you have, be it good or bad. i'm very happy to have all of you here with me. being through all these together. and no matter what you'll always be a part of me.
hahah. okay dont be so emo.
ENJOY SIP EVERYONE. SARANGHAE.
and tomorrow will be a better day.
love ivy:D
which is making me damn restless. i lost my very very important SIP student log book. can you imagine i've already misplace it before you even go for you sip?
speechless careless useless.
nevermind. anyway. i've already set my mind on how to make myself happy.
i've always made other peoples problem seems like mine. and i think thats really god damn stupid of me to do that.
but alright. lets put it to an end. past.
now i'll only care for those who need me and those whom i really care for.
i start to hate school as much as loving school. everything everyone.
i'm very glad to have known some people but i'd like to name some who i really care.
first. my BFF- seanny sean sean.
at first i said he's my BFF just for fun. but over time i really think he is. and i'll also be a good BFF for him:D
second. my old friend- sister ngiam.
hahaha. i think thats more than words. i believe that we're 2 aunties. seriously. going to the market to grab many many bargains. till 50. maybe we'll be sitting by the beach like we used to watching our kids play.
then my bestfriend- LEO
at first when i saw him or knew him i really really hate him. but over time i get to know him better and understand him. though i think sometimes he's not talking sense. but. he's one that will listen to me and for me thas enough.
forth up. my new friend- jason lau kim leong
i might not know him that well or might not even have much common interest. but i know he's a good guy and a nice friend. so, i'll try and be your nice friend jason:D
fifth. my lost friend- prissy.
one that stays near me and was the past me. hack care. i think she has a nice heart. to me she was there, will be here and will be there. love you prissy:D
i have many many many friends in my 3 years life.
some changed me. some made me a fighter. some always and only see me cry. some didnt get to know me well enough to comment. some just like to laugh at me. some has weird voice. some like super junior. some didnt/ hate them. some only tapped in and out of studio. some love to jog around school. some love KFC. some cannot live without bubbletea. some are great fan of xerox. some will find hassan for the whole day. some are staring at their laptop the whole day. some print and print and print. some love to take photo of themselves. some only snap themselves. some love to webcam. some sing out loud. some need to go to the toilet every now and then. some love the bookshop. some have maggie mee for every meal. some need to go home early. some love to stay out late.
whatever or whoever you're. no matter what flaws you have, be it good or bad. i'm very happy to have all of you here with me. being through all these together. and no matter what you'll always be a part of me.
hahah. okay dont be so emo.
ENJOY SIP EVERYONE. SARANGHAE.
and tomorrow will be a better day.
love ivy:D
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
imagine the school ask you to buy this particular insurence saying that it can cover you up for any medical bills. but when i got knocked down by a car one day. you wannna claim from the school then the farkign school and those cover ass people ask you to give them e-mail, hospital bills and all those fark stuff before you can claim. fuck off la.
OMGosh. heechul. i really totally love him man. he can be super cute. super funny and super man. haha. no wonder he can be in super junioer. kang in ar. everyone say my kangin's very rough. but i still love him. haha. it has really been a long time since i last blog. now i'm like waiting for my ppt to load and send it to fiz. cause hai some communication break down and i'm like freaking tired now. i manage to change my blog skin thanks to my lovely sissybaby. shall watch youtube now. SUPER JUNIOR AGAIN!! SARANGHAE. kangin oppa heechul oppa and eunhyuk oppa. LOL.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
i am very tired
i want to be quiet.
i dont want to talk.
i am tired of talking to people.
i am thinking.
if i can be alone.
just by myself.
all alone.
i seem to have a problem.
or maybe more.
its me myself and i.
i am tired of telling this to people who dont know and will never know.
i'm gonna be selfish. or even more selfish.
no matter how much i give.
how much worth it is to me.
to you its nothing.
end of time.
you lead your own life.
and me?
having nothing left.
thanks for teaching me these. my friends.
http://leehuiru.blogspot.com/
i hate to say these again and again.
i have yet to learn.
i forgot who am i?
who i once was.
was i really the cheerful girl everyone thought?
happy go lucky?
everyone's moved on.
for a better tomorrow.
what about me?
will anyone wait for me?
be with me?
i make a fool out of myself everyday.
thinking that its funny.
i laugh alot.
quite alot.
but only i know i cried that much too.
there's something in life that i am very interested in.
and curious about.
human relationship.
are there really people who put you first?
in front of themselves?
people who are willing to sacrifice themselves?
why some people can communicate with the others when they speak different languages?
acceptance?
love?
i am very upset recently.
but i couldnt cry it out.
it has been a long time since
i cried like there's no tomorrow.
i laugh till i couldnt breathe.
i am more careful of what i wear and look
then how i feel.
i start to loose confidence in what i'm doing.
i loose patience.
i am scared. to tell people how i feel.
i am unsatisfied.
with every imperfection. of myself.
i have many company in school,
but i know some are there for me.
some are not meant for me.
there's some i know are just passer by.
some will leave beautiful memory.
i am scared. really scared.
i might not be able to catch up.
with the fast pace society.
i see people moving quickly.
will i move on?
i want to be quiet.
i dont want to talk.
i am tired of talking to people.
i am thinking.
if i can be alone.
just by myself.
all alone.
i seem to have a problem.
or maybe more.
its me myself and i.
i am tired of telling this to people who dont know and will never know.
i'm gonna be selfish. or even more selfish.
no matter how much i give.
how much worth it is to me.
to you its nothing.
end of time.
you lead your own life.
and me?
having nothing left.
thanks for teaching me these. my friends.
http://leehuiru.blogspot.com/
i hate to say these again and again.
i have yet to learn.
i forgot who am i?
who i once was.
was i really the cheerful girl everyone thought?
happy go lucky?
everyone's moved on.
for a better tomorrow.
what about me?
will anyone wait for me?
be with me?
i make a fool out of myself everyday.
thinking that its funny.
i laugh alot.
quite alot.
but only i know i cried that much too.
there's something in life that i am very interested in.
and curious about.
human relationship.
are there really people who put you first?
in front of themselves?
people who are willing to sacrifice themselves?
why some people can communicate with the others when they speak different languages?
acceptance?
love?
i am very upset recently.
but i couldnt cry it out.
it has been a long time since
i cried like there's no tomorrow.
i laugh till i couldnt breathe.
i am more careful of what i wear and look
then how i feel.
i start to loose confidence in what i'm doing.
i loose patience.
i am scared. to tell people how i feel.
i am unsatisfied.
with every imperfection. of myself.
i have many company in school,
but i know some are there for me.
some are not meant for me.
there's some i know are just passer by.
some will leave beautiful memory.
i am scared. really scared.
i might not be able to catch up.
with the fast pace society.
i see people moving quickly.
will i move on?
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
it seems like the earth is the best planet for human beings. but is it?
it seems like we're meant to do what we do. but must we?
it seems like we have to go through all these shit to learn and survive. but do we?
it seems like there are people around that want you dead. but can i survive?
it seems like i have always made the right choice. but did i?
it seems like not knowing is the best choice. but is it?
it seems like people around me do treasure me. but are they?
it seems like i am protected and surrounded with love. but am i?
it seems like i have been living in my own world all these times. but i tend to see more.
it seems like there's always two side of the story. but i chose to only believe one.
which i think is wrong.
i think i owe myself an apology. so are those i choose not to believe.
it seems like we're meant to do what we do. but must we?
it seems like we have to go through all these shit to learn and survive. but do we?
it seems like there are people around that want you dead. but can i survive?
it seems like i have always made the right choice. but did i?
it seems like not knowing is the best choice. but is it?
it seems like people around me do treasure me. but are they?
it seems like i am protected and surrounded with love. but am i?
it seems like i have been living in my own world all these times. but i tend to see more.
it seems like there's always two side of the story. but i chose to only believe one.
which i think is wrong.
i think i owe myself an apology. so are those i choose not to believe.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
who is ur favourite suju member to the least favourite? :)
for mine, it goes this way:
kangin
eunhyuk
heechul
shindong
eeteuk
donghae
ryeowook
yesung
hankyung
siwon
kibum
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kyuhyun
but i love everyone. saranghaeyo:D SUPER JUNIOR AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!
for mine, it goes this way:
kangin
eunhyuk
heechul
shindong
eeteuk
donghae
ryeowook
yesung
hankyung
siwon
kibum
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Monday, June 22, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
first i start to be crazy over some idol thingy. which i usually dont. or maybe never. i start to speak in a really rude way. thinking that its funny but i know its not. i couldnt get my work done in the required quality. my grades dropped like it used to. but i think its never going up again. i start to lose hope easily. which i usually dont. i hope that i'm thinking too much at time. or am i hearing the real things? i tend to panic for NOTHING. ignoring my friends. taking things for granted. arh. what is wrong with me?
alright i need a break now and tomorrow will be a better day! so is the next day. next next day. next next day and next next next day.
alright i need a break now and tomorrow will be a better day! so is the next day. next next day. next next day and next next next day.
i got no idea what seems to be the problem with me recently. i couldnt think properly think properly and i'm not very sure of what i'm doing. who i'm talking to. i'm very sorry. i couldnt really think. i can say thats an excuse for myself. but arh.. i just dont know what's wrong. i know i have a problem.or maybe i've changed.
P.S. i doubt anyone will know what i'm talking about. cause i dont.
P.S. i doubt anyone will know what i'm talking about. cause i dont.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
it has really been a really long time since i sat down and blog and think about what i've done. i believe not many people know what happened to me. so shall we start from camp?
DOC camp mwas really freaking fun. i loved everyone and i get to know really nice people. ethel, sam, crys, paul, kenneth. i didnt love the freshies that much thought. and many cocked ups during camp but i really love my kakis.
then in school, i managed to talk it out with the people who i didnt really like or people who i have problems with. i wouldnt consider the problem to be settled. but it is at least much better than before. i dont dare to say more. time will show.
then it was my birthday. i'm lost of words to that. it is a heart warmin day for me. i love what everyone did. its the thoughts that really counts for me. it is more the what you think it is for me.
and i was crazy over american idol, super junior recently. kris allen won. and super junior! i just cant stop watching them on youtube. i will watch almost every link. LOL
then soon i'll be going for SIP. which is really a nightmare for me. can i like die. then after that we'll be offically OL which means NO LIFE!and this 2 weeks jacen and mark will go for their 2 years government chalet. i'll miss them for sure. but thats what guys should be doing to become a real man.(i call that)
anyway i'm preparing my portfolio this few weeks and that sucks.
today i saw this ang mo kid on the bus. he's seating infront of me. he's around 7-10 year old. how cute. and he's like reading the SBS bus guide. LOL. i cant stop but to keep staring. cause i myself 19 year old singaporean cant really read or understand that. he flip a few pages and kept it back into his bag. then... he took out the street directory! WTH. i cant read that too! and he flip. look out of the window finding the street sign and flip again. LOL . then he went to the bus driver and asked the driver if the bus goes to katong. pointing at the map. LOL. i think the bus driver cant read that himself can. i swear he's super cute. his slang. hahahah. okay anyway he's going to his friends house. damn cute. like HELLO! what will a singaporean kid do lor. ask money from their parents for cab?
asking the driver? asking friends?okay. thats what i do. but for a kid of that age already being so Independent. i wouldnt even dare! i think we've got more to learn.
okay i have to do work for now. bye world:)
DOC camp mwas really freaking fun. i loved everyone and i get to know really nice people. ethel, sam, crys, paul, kenneth. i didnt love the freshies that much thought. and many cocked ups during camp but i really love my kakis.
then in school, i managed to talk it out with the people who i didnt really like or people who i have problems with. i wouldnt consider the problem to be settled. but it is at least much better than before. i dont dare to say more. time will show.
then it was my birthday. i'm lost of words to that. it is a heart warmin day for me. i love what everyone did. its the thoughts that really counts for me. it is more the what you think it is for me.
and i was crazy over american idol, super junior recently. kris allen won. and super junior! i just cant stop watching them on youtube. i will watch almost every link. LOL
then soon i'll be going for SIP. which is really a nightmare for me. can i like die. then after that we'll be offically OL which means NO LIFE!and this 2 weeks jacen and mark will go for their 2 years government chalet. i'll miss them for sure. but thats what guys should be doing to become a real man.(i call that)
anyway i'm preparing my portfolio this few weeks and that sucks.
today i saw this ang mo kid on the bus. he's seating infront of me. he's around 7-10 year old. how cute. and he's like reading the SBS bus guide. LOL. i cant stop but to keep staring. cause i myself 19 year old singaporean cant really read or understand that. he flip a few pages and kept it back into his bag. then... he took out the street directory! WTH. i cant read that too! and he flip. look out of the window finding the street sign and flip again. LOL . then he went to the bus driver and asked the driver if the bus goes to katong. pointing at the map. LOL. i think the bus driver cant read that himself can. i swear he's super cute. his slang. hahahah. okay anyway he's going to his friends house. damn cute. like HELLO! what will a singaporean kid do lor. ask money from their parents for cab?
asking the driver? asking friends?okay. thats what i do. but for a kid of that age already being so Independent. i wouldnt even dare! i think we've got more to learn.
okay i have to do work for now. bye world:)
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
i said before if you're unhappy with me or whatever just tell me to the face. no point not telling me. i wouldnt know and shouldnt think its me. unless you let me know. i dont think i had attitude problem this morning. i was in a pretty good mood until i saw that * face. and saw her blog. i didnt thought it was me. and steph said it was herself. i dont understand. and i wouldnt care! cause even you said it wasnt me. it wasnt me!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
i think i did it all wrong. i was always joking around and no one ever know if i was really serious. yes. i do hate shihui for being her. i do hate yalam for changing me. blurring my future and and my BFF. i couldnt forgive. but i was really sorry. cause i could not accept. i could not accept what huijie did. i could not accept that. i was angry. i sat down at my desk thinking. was that worth it?
i once said that graduation was one of the most emotional part of my life. i hate the feeling of people having to leave me. though i know some are leaving for the good. for their future. but i just dun like it. cant everone stay by me? there'll be people who i'll have to dislike in my life. not because they're bitch shit or whatever. its simple because we think differently. i think because of me being daring and bold enough to tell the world my thoughts. i've giving the courage for people who dislike the person i dislike to further dislike them. thats when the hatred comes. when we keeps stirring.
i wasnt comparing. i just hope that we can be true friends, enjoy having one another with us. without bitching. cause it hurts. i know i sucks. i'm totally being ridiculious. but i just don't want people around me to hate this people just because i hate them.
i enjoy being with candice, grace, sheryl, lydia and stephanie.
but once in a while i'll still miss edison, seng hwee, shihui and huijie. no matter what they once play an important part in my poly life. i know you might think i am comparing or wanting to turn back. but i'd say. i would turn back to them unless they're really worth me. worth me for crying for them. worry if they're okay. but i still dont see that now. it seems like you guys are enjoying. but nevermind.i still have candice grace sheryl lydia and steph.
did anyone ever understand what i meant and thought?
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