IVY LEE

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yesterday's a great day for me. meet my old school mates. have so many thoughts going through my mind. i dunno how to express myself in words. but i loved them one way or the other. and please remember we're those who survived and pulled through. so hang on and move on:D

my day ended very badly. i hear. i tried. but i think i wasnt much appriciated. i thought what i've been doing was right. trying to save someone. but i lost. i hated you these much. as much as i hate myself. thanks for making me feel stupid. i've lost one friend recently. sorry but if you make me feel "not worth" i would hesitate but to let go. i've learnt alot. and i'll move on. there's no point giving so much yet not appriciated. i worth more.

there're times where people tell me. hey ivy you know so many people around in school, how cool. hey ivy you have so many friends life's so fun. yup. i cant deny that yes i know many people and many people know me. but have you guys ever thought or know that those are the people who're with me when i smile. when i'm happy. how many of you out there really know me. really knows that i'm upset. knows that i need to cry. knows that i'm not okay. knows that i'm alone. sometimes i really feel like breaking down but i know i cant affort to. tell me who's willing to hear me cry. see me emo. listen to me whine. complain. curse? you'll say it'll be you. ivy cheer up. i'm with you. but are you ever trueful? for real? you'll say yes. but i've still yet to met one. i felt so aloe at time. lost. confused. i duno what to do. but i'll act strong. act pro. but in fact i'm not.

nevermind. my life has to go on. happy or sad. but i'll treasure me. myself and people who love me. i'll move on. smiling. one day you'll see and think or me. but is it too late? thanks for making me understand.

reason for me loving them is they speaks me.
make me felt not alone.


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?

Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
So no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

~Chorus~
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding?

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

~Chorus~
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work, it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

~Chorus~
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

~Chorus~
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life (x3)